11:40pm
I bottle up my feelings and cap them just to set them on the bookshelf hidden in my coat closet.
I never visit, unless I’m adding another glass bottle to the collection.
Some of them have fallen off and broken open, so the feelings then dissipate into the air.
Maybe I should break them all open;
push the bookshelf over and let the bottles fall to the ground —
let all of the anger and frustration and depression melt into the tile or just evaporate.
I would,
but what if the feelings find their way back to me?
What if I breathe them in and they get back into my head, but only now they’re worse?
What if I never escape them, never find a way away from them?
I’m too afraid to risk it.
I think I’ll just leave them to collect dust for now.